Today’s guest posting is by Roy’s wife, Char Lessin. It is part of a series of personal testimonies that focus on God’s faithfulness in her life.
How do we walk in peace and joy? In my walk, I have found it is by placing my hope and my expectation in the Lord!
The heavy weight of disappointment I used to feel when plans would fall through would take me a week to climb out from! I often ‘expected’ people and circumstances to make me happy and content. Because my expectation from others was so big, my disappointments would, in turn, be big.
One day I found myself totally helpless and weak—making plans of any kind was not even a consideration. Soon, I no longer had the energy to even get out of bed. My days of helplessness and weakness turned into weeks. I had a blank wall next to the bed that I looked at most of the time. Then, to my surprise, I had a life-changing experience! The Lord’s Presence filled the room! I sensed it. I knew it. I had not experienced anything like it!
In the days that followed I began to learn ‘the presence of the Lord’ as my source of joy and fulfillment—filling the empty places with Himself. Each day in the Lord’s presence was like medicine.
Slowly, my physical strength returned. When I was strong enough to resume many of my daily activities as a wife and mother, I knew it was only because the Lord was my strength. All my “plans” and expectations were in Him. My fulfillment and contentment were no longer dependent upon other things or people. I was free from the need of looking without to fill the holes within. I could live in the reality of the Lord’s peace and joy even if things didn’t turn out the way I had expected.
And now, Lord, what do I wait for and expect? My hope and expectation are in You. Psalm 39:7 AMP